I don’t believe in religious experiences. I don’t trust in the blinding light of heaven. God, I wish I did. But every time we hear the gospel, it’s as if we’re listening for the first time. Anew. These thoughts are born again each hour of the heaven-sent day, called upon whenever our uneventful unfolding requires […]
Says the shadow: “I painted this mirror for you last night, just as you asked many moons ago. I am an artist of broad, frenzied brushstrokes when the night sweats seize me and shake me senseless.” Says the ghost: “From this moment forward, every drop of you will be forever soaked into the pitch black. […]
Caught, trapped, wrapped and woollen bound in a complete whiteout, a winter wonderland of sorts, with my fingers little more than a faded monochrome mere millimetres from my face. I can almost believe that nothing else exists — that nothing else ever existed — beyond my protective wall of rusting wire. The ever-buzzing hive, the thriving […]
“Haven’t we met before, under brighter skies above?” It was nothing more than a nod of acceptance, a vague echo of understanding and a limp, nervous handshake, yet the sub-text of a single question would echo on for days. A memory somehow came alive, even though it had still to be lived in its entirety […]
This is nothing like it was in my room, in my best clothes. Sharply creased, pressed and ironed into my uniform. It had been decided that I was going away, because Something Wasn’t Right about me. Because out of sight meant out of mind. Out of the way, more likely. Out of your harm’s way, […]
My Equus, my beast of possession, my trusted means of hunting down my obsessions. The four-legged hurdler who never stopped hurtling, who revelled in the pursuit, who could be let loose on a moment’s whim to race my each and every all-consuming need, desire and depravity to the point on the distant horizon where the […]
Too many thoughts this evening, this dusk, this night. Overwhelmed by them. So overwhelmed that they merge into a single, tangible thought that beats like a human heart ripped untimely from its bloody chamber, yet no less treasured because of that. You know how it is. You always do. Yes, I’m addressing you, even though I […]
One. Two. Three. Tell me more. “Other people weep, but I just need a little something to make me sleep” is what the weariest of voices murmurs from inside a cacophony of noiseless sounds. I play his words again and again, in the desperate hope that they will destroy the footsteps dancing their endless oblivion sequence […]
“Sometimes I used to fly away each night On the wings of an old love song.” I almost dread having to use the term ‘romantic’ about a song, simply because of the connotations it immediately places in my head, let alone anyone else’s. For some reason, I invariably and unfortunately end up thinking of George Michael […]
You know that you have been listening to too much music when you find yourself pondering which song, out of a two-way choice between Sex Dwarf by Soft Cell (“luring disco dollies to a life of vice”) or Sex Beat by The Gun Club (“we can fuck forever but you will never get my soul”), […]
Look, there’s no easy way of saying this, but I used to regularly experience a bad dream. A very bad dream. It was so horrific, so black in content, that it was almost amusing in its awful bleakness. Darkly hilarious, in fact. The sort of dream from which, if I were a writer of twisted […]
Hush. Like all the best things in life, it starts quietly. By streets and miles, leaps and bounds, there is absolutely no competition for the song that meant the most to me in 2006. Unusually, it even manages to be a track that was released over this past rather strange year, too. For me, that’s […]