Please put down your pens

About one and a half hours ago, I sat down at my com­puter with the inten­tion of writ­ing a post about, um, writ­ing. More spe­cific­ally, a post about the writ­ing course I recently star­ted but didn’t fin­ish, why I didn’t fin­ish it, what I’ve come to real­ise about myself and the envir­on­ment in which I can write, about how writ­ing is unduly influ­enced by my life and my moods, why I con­tinue to write here whilst I’m cur­rently feel­ing com­pletely unin­spired by writ­ing and … oh, you know, stuff.

At this point, it’s prob­ably worth remem­ber­ing that although I love writ­ing, I only write entries about writ­ing when I can’t write, and when the con­sequent lack of writ­ing is frus­trat­ing me bey­ond belief.

That last para­graph con­tained a few too many uses of the words ‘write’ and ‘writ­ing’, didn’t it? Please for­give me.

My fin­gers scur­ried over the key­board as I bashed out approx­im­ately eight hun­dred words of dis­join­ted, con­fus­ing rub­bish, with sen­tences so long that they required a bewil­der­ing array of punc­tu­ation just to get them to make even the slight­est sense. Then I gave up, closed the Note­pad doc­u­ment without sav­ing it, and cursed under my breath.

It wasn’t work­ing. On this occa­sion, using this site to write about writ­ing wasn’t get­ting me any­where. I need to write, and I wanted to write about need­ing to write, but just recently the words haven’t been mater­i­al­ising. While I can make edu­cated guesses at a few of the reas­ons why this might be hap­pen­ing, I also have no clue about some of the other causes.

I’m temp­ted to con­clude with a sol­it­ary explet­ive that would con­cisely sum up my present state of mind. But I can’t even think of a suit­able one. Instead, I’ll leave you with a word count — you have been read­ing 354 words about a post that, in the end, didn’t even appear here. How point­less was that? I would like to offer my sin­cere apo­lo­gies for wast­ing pre­cious seconds of your life.

This entry has been can­celled due to lack of interest.